I'm still singing..

• What if I was really drunk every night that you were gone?

And I just didn’t wuna let you know.. Because it’s “not that big of a deal” anyway..

• What if I never really believed a single thing that you have been telling me?

Everything you have been telling me sounds bull.. “Talkshit” as you’ve said what my cousins thought of you.. But I say “ah okay” anyway just so your lies would end there..

• What if I never really quit smoking?

Because I get offended when you think (i know that that’s what you think) that “i’m pa-cool”.. NO, it soothes me every fucking time I feel my heart palpitating until it hurts so much.. The pain soothes me because I get numb from all the hurting that you cause me..

• What if it’s never really “fine” for me?

Because I can’t be the only one fighting for you.. For us..

GRAAARRR What if what if amputa.

I’m so dramatic these days.. I dunno why. And I’m suffering from withdrawal syndrome =’( I’m having a hard time getting myself fat..

PS Haven’t you noticed I don’t ask you “who are you with?” , “why are you going there?” , “did you eat plenty?” , “where are you?” anymore? That’s cause I don’t want you lying to me anymore.. It hurts too much =’(